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Destiny Ramirez
Sights, smells, oh your thoughts I didn't know worked...? Because if they did why am I lost in confusion and desperation of these pores.... I thought my days with you were everything now im left to think about my future... I was left with addictions,obsessions,and problems to commute with my adventure.... Im thinking of bringing closure though... From the high you brought to my body to the guilt you left from a meal... Did you know that your a killer to my body inside and out... A pain that sinks in,like poison all around... Like venom to your bloodstream... Like cancer to your bones,lungs,brain,and breasts... Wheres the upstream? To this problem I face.... Am I worthless,losing,or am I just a disgrace? To you I know Im nothing because that's what you brought me down too... A person who thought she needed to be something just like you wanted... But I fought hard like a solider on the battlefield now im new... But the actions I repeated will forever keep me haunted... Taunt me, abuse me, lure me into your trap... Try to but you can't cause there will never be a chance... Because of you I was alone,i was afraid, I was chasing unwanted dreams that weren't even true... Took almost passing out on the bathroom floor to realize everything I almost lost because of you... Till this day you haunt me everytime I face the biggest fear I was running away from, food... The look of it, the amount, the taste, but im stronger than you... I can say no... I can let go... I can say hello... But that doesn't mean your still there... I'll always have you with me because your a part of what I was to made to be... But never will I go back to living in despair... Because now I have faith the strength to believe... You gave me an intense memory of you though... Which was to always stay focused on your body don't listen to others... Your a liar and the one who threw stones to the wall... And I was the one who put up those walls... From Paris all the way to San Francisco... I wan't you to know I know the truth now... Your manipulating and tortured my life with depression... I have to build my self esteem,my strength and love now from your progression... My obsessions were you, my addictions were the action.... But I have learned to forgive myself for all that I have done... And I will continue to do so everyday as long as I know im living... Because im grateful to be alive to be the one... To be giving... receiving... and releasing... And your not gonna give me the reason to fall down because I won't... I stand my ground... Your not worth it your not gonna win... Now your gonna be the one who has to be told... Not me because Im powerful and your nothing... I know this remission is a battle and im not perfect... But you were the problem and the curb that took me away to your world... But I took your guard and left... Singing aloud now I know im powerless to you where you are... I hope to see you as a constellation just like the stars...

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